locked his locks up.

it's my dad's birthday, too.

happy birth date chinwe, my love

just for me

so my first check..... is going to a camera

and my friends know how picture crazy i get.
i have at least 30 fb albums.1000+ pictures on more than one computer

i've had a about 6 cameras in the last 6 years.
[kodaks.nikons.canons.] [reverse screens. zoom.sepia.cool pix]
but i pack them around and the screen gets cracked, meagan gets sad
(same ole same ole)

this time i am looking to make an investment and have one that will LAST in my hectic purses.

it's time for me to get back to what i love
i'm no expert photographer. but it's what i love doing -capturing my world.

working girl.

so today is my first day of work.
(and i am obviously excited)
at this very moment i am supose to be beginning my first shift as
an associate at express :) but they called and said they didn't need me.
the store is right outsidea starbucks (uh ohh)
but making more money an hr than ever.

i have shopped at express once in my life
yesterday
for clothes to wear to work.
i thought this is the perfect job,
i won't spend all my money on clothes
too bad urban outfitters is literally
a hop, skip and jump away.
sheesh.
let's pray i can abstain.

today is going to be a long day.

and i'm ready and excited.

let's make some money.

i get chills when i hear
we be to rap,

what key be to lock.

come to her.

she seeks shade.
timid and soft
she finds comfort
in the shadows.but bring her out
into the light,
she'll beam for you.
her eyes sing to you.a danger to the public.
she tries to hold it in,
but sooner than later
she emerges a woman.

some days i feel like i have no talent.
some weeks i'm worthless.
some times i'm weak.
my shell breaks
exposed and invisible
i can sit in the middle of the crowd
and still have the worse seat in the room.

sideways rhyming.

as someone that would like to be a notable poet. i am always eager to learn more about my art form.
how other poets made it? how i can revise and create my own masterpieces.

structure.
organization.
rhythm.
everything.

the most interesting is rhyming.
i don't like bubble rhymes though
no i meet this boy at school/i thought he was cool/but he really was a tool.

i enjoy subtlety. slant(imperfect.half) rhyme was the answer.

first used by the western europeans..
but my real appreciation for slant rhyme comes from hip-hop/rap lyrics

slant rhymes are about the same vowel sound, but a different end consonant
like rhyming heart and calm
(mystifying)

common- next time

i was shocked inside
but i reacted live
to her everytime i think of her
she actualize


it's all so beautiful to me.

whether in poetry or lyrics (depending on how you catergoize them) it is enchanting say.

slant requires an audio appreciation for language.
and it makes you see how english language can be manipulated in a good way.

reading good and hood, is an obvious rhyme.

but calm and heart, it takes a certain articulation to consider the similarities.

keep praying. one day it will come true.

it's late.
and i'm sure you're asleep,
but my mind drags you back to me.

in the early morning,
i wonder if you're dreaming of me
the same way i'm awake thinking of you.

why torture myself
with the idea of me being in your ideas?
i can't help wanting to be on your mind.

in the foregroud
of your every slow paced subconscious thoughts.
i just want to be near you.

love you, but hate you.

as much as i loathe the character vanessa marigold abrams from gossip girl and want her to remove her self-righteous ass self from the show..i love jessica szohr.

both szohr and her character share a quirky sense of style that dazzles the audience.

hungarian and african american - this young lady seems to know how to mix and match everything.

landing guest roles on early tv sitcoms, szhor was finally cast as dan humphrey's "does she or doesn't she like him" friend from brooklyn.

while the series is on break, she is filiming a movie in new orleans love, wedding, marriage.

with her youthful look, co-star/ boyfriend ed westwick (chuck bass) and obvious talents..i will be keeping my eye on her.

but not on monday nights when i want vanessa to stop messing things up. argh.

keke.

i'm posting this not so much for the musical talent, but those glasses are what that is.

not so great food. amazing people.

i already miss family dinner.

we go together like

this is as much as i could get with them still.

but they are so cute

let's all try it.

eat good

eat healthy

oh thanks for telling me, now i get it because you're a genius.

i would say. i'm a fan of the boondocks.
or should i say the satire that is the boondocks.

the smart ass kids. the booty chasing grandpa.
not uncle rukus though
[never have, never will]
i understand his role in the scheme of things..
and how his self-hatred because he is a black man that is in love with the white man is all apart of the grand greatness of the boondocks

it's people's reactions that piss me off.
after the episode everyone crowds on twitter to explain the BIG PICTURE

my reaction to their reaction #STFU

seriously if people are upset, good. are they laughing, ehhh might not be so good
if they are laughing the might be missing the message.

it's suppose to be offensive to make you think. that a person can now contemplate why they found the episode to be harsh is the lightbulb moment.

everyone tries to..what i call philosophize the boondocks. only because they knew there is an underlying message.
it does't take a genius people.

freaking boondocks professors trying to relay the contents of each night's episode.smh.

can't wait for next week....

while the kitchen is being redone and we no longer have access to the stove, microwave or refrigerator. i guess this is how i'm living.

5 weeks to go, sigh.

welcome to HIVESOCIETY

getting ready for crawfish and budlight.
i'm very excited.
tonight's going to be a good night.

Crawfish & Budlight Commercial from Evesborough Films on Vimeo.

anxiously awaiting...

after being cancelled from the cw in 2009 for not being one of the hour long comedies single camera series.
on april 4 it was reported bet was finalizing details on the producing new episodes.

it's about time bet did something for the black audience
(even though it originally aired on the cw)
..and i hope it's as good it was before.
more melanie and derwin loving.
although i don't like the words "majority of the cast to return"
it makes me nervous about who will no longer be on show :(
(i hope everyone above and especially TT)

when i first saw the show being advertised in 2006 i have to admit i was less than optimistic about the show's "entertaining quality" and only watched began watching after the 2 episode because there was absolutely nothing else on television in the same time slot.

so i'm excited to see when filiming and broadcast will happen.

in the meantime, does anyone know how i can watch OLD episodes of girlfriends online or on tv?

it's a cold world out there and you've got to stay vigilant, in case of those that wish to harm.

a little about me

I am a cuddler (minorly)
I am a morning person
I am a perfectionist
I am a night person
I am an only child
I am Catholic
I am currently in my pajamas
I am currently suffering from a broken heart
I am okay at styling other people’s hair
I am left handed
I am addicted to my twitter
I am very shy around the opposite gender
I bite my nails
I can be paranoid at times
I currently regret something that I have said
When I get mad I curse frequently
I like someone
I enjoy jazz music
I enjoy smoothies
I enjoy talking on the phone
I have a pet
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
I have a tendency to fall for the wrong person
I have all my grandparents
I have at least one sibling
I have been told that I am smart
I have broken a bone
I have Caller I.D. on my phone
I have bathed/ showered with someone
I have changed a diaper
I have changed a lot over the past year
I have done something illegal
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair
I have had surgery
I have killed another person
I have had my hair cut within the last week
I have had the cops called on me
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t
I have held hands with someone who wasn’t my boyfriend/girlfriend
I have loved someone
I have danced around naked

i entertain easily.

be and stay alive

that's all i try to do.

the big reveal

the crop top is in.
and it's midrifts for days in the blazing houston weather
but not everyone is as comfortable revealing so much
so i found a solution

#BAM
now you can rock this look and have a little modesty.
another problem solved.

sorry i'm so awkward.

what's up doc

it's time for physical therapy.

i'm not excited for it
but i am excited for full range of motion & being closer to normal.

geez. i really don't want to go, but i have to.


i wish i knew how to do magic and make my arm better again.
but i don't :(

sunshine....

strangers are in my house. and i love this commercial

it's a marsha brady thing

i am going through a major marsha brady phase
(and even though my aunt's were born during the mini dress trend, they aren't too thrilled)

it has taken me so long to get comfortable in my own skin
i went most of middle school and high school without wearing dresses.shorts.skirts.
my knees were seriously black
(not dark brown or the normal darker than my legs that majority of black girls have)
no this was bad genes and having to kneel in corners saying the rosary at my grandmother's house when i would "talk back"
my mom would give me creams and potions to help make them lighter,but nothing worked.

thankfully, ambi cream worked.
my knees are still darker than my legs, but i'm cool with that.
sometimes i find myself in shorts wondering if people are looking at my knees
but then i just strut.

i'm finally free!

so in marsha brady - i can't bend over or cough
they are also a good social experiment.
i get some hilarious looks in my dresses.
some good. some wthell. some :D. some people clutch their kids a little tighter.
but that other people's problem, not mine.

The Niceguys.

meet the niceguys.
when you've turned off your soulja boi and songs that you can only get crunk to when you're drunk at a party.
turn on some new, fresh hip-hop music.
don't take my word for it
download the mixtapes here >>>> The Niceguys Link
oldie but always a goodie.


niceguys. niceguys. niceguys they are my friends.
waddup todd.

waddup free.

waddup e.

waddup me.
candlestick.

in the mix. keep the party lit my dj the shit.
you just hating 'cause you didn't get picked, keep hating gotta answer to the click.

:(

so i couldn't find the youtube version of
a new episode of the simpsons

where homer drops milk on the floor
and starts sobbing uncontrollably.

"spilled milk..all over the floor"

i found it so hilarious (obviously)
because of the play on the phrase
"it's no use crying over spilled milk"

and it's so true for many other things.
we dwell over the things we can't control and we can't change.
we've just got to learn to move on.

see there was a point

haiku you. 4 for 1 special.

my attempts at haikus [they don't all adhere to the standard format]
to leave a meadow

to leave a meadow
      and the breeze continue to blow
far beyond the reach

the ripples pulsate

the ripples pulsates
    above a mimicking braid,
        lower the mind wonders

to see the day past

    to see the day past
as clear as wind's hands
marking the looming hour

trying to paste flowers

trying to paste flowers,
on ambitious pavements.
dreaming can be hard.

yesterday, today, tomorrow

i counted the final
minutes on the wall

and i looked up
to witnessed the day's end.

as the sky melted
cascaded
back into the edges of another land

i felt my heart beat
slowed
for the next day adventure

in the morning

late as usual,
the fingerprints left on the alarm clock
reveal the dreams
that have pulled me out of a state
all too familiar.

as i walk to class
i notice the traces of Revlon vixen nail polish,
liquid eyeliner and dirt on the tips
of my fingers. and i'm almost tempted
to taste the concoction to see if it taste
like dirty glamour.

my alter ego- marie rose was already
waiting in my row. a runaway
love child,
father was a hippie & mother was a princess

i try to concentrate, but my mind
goes back to the idea of slayed dragons

teach the children

arizona gop governor jan brewer signed a law banning "ethnics studies."
mostly targeting chicano studies, but not excluding other minority groups.
texas school board rewrites history books to aid the conservative agenda.
filling the book with right-wing lean such as...

John McCarthy was a national hero. Thomas Jefferson not so much.

The SLAVE trade was really a triangular trade system that just happened to include human beings.

Texas is the country's largest distribution market for learning materials. Meaning, millions of children will be expected to learn these MINOR rewrites and take test over such ideas.

The United States may not have the most admiral history, but we can't just make as it never happened by sugar coating the facts to erase the many injustices that have caused particular groups of people to suffer centuries, decades and years.

Arizona doesn't want to make children to feel like white people were oppressors since the beginning of the start of the nation, but it is true. The Natives suffered, Blacks suffered, Latinos suffered and people suffer each day, but in order to overcome and not repeat the mistakes we must learn, forgive and move foward.

Taking away children's rights to know the truth is not tha answer.

JUNE 30th

i had to. i just had to.
i'm going to be finishing breaking dawn this summer
(since i wikipedia-ed the ending)
so.just like the new moon trailer- chills

hey bestie!

bwahahaha...
i know right...hilarious.
just like you.

suspenseful, huh?

thinking about cherry ring pops and half eaten cherries.

but this is as close as i got.

times are hard, but style must continue.

i am a stripe fanatic.
stripes can go extreme to the basics.
mix'n'match

pair a striped shirt with khaki shorts or go wild and rock a floral skirt with sandals.

yum. right?

and what's more thin stripes with thick stripes.

i'm excited just thinking about it.

if you've ever facebook chated me after dark

10:24pm Bestie
im listenin to amethyst and amber argue it is too cute

10:24pm Me
ahhhhhh i wanna hear
about what?
tell her i bet she won't hit her though
and don't make it clear who should hit who
but i bet she won't get out there
CAUSE SHE AINT GOT NO REAL PLEX

---

10:41pm Me
i better get 7 cupcakes

10:43pm Bestie
lol smh fat ass amber is a fatty to she told amethyst the cupcake was good but it wasnt big enough

10:43pm Me
IT MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN BIG ENOUGH
damn it

good morning.

feet don't touch the ground

sometimes i wish i could be suspended in time, suspended in place.because all i have left are the memories
and occasions that "happened" and "past"
the present never seemed so blurry.
so, i refuse to my feet on the ground in fear
that contact with the floor will erase the now. i want remain here.

i may be falling in love with a child.

his name daniel dwayne simmons III but most people know him as little "diggy" from run's house
with pharrel williams as his mentor
it's no wonder why i'm become so smitten with the young guy.
son of hip hop royalty born in 1995.
it can be hard for a child of a celebrity to gain respect
as they venture into the same field as their parents,
but this simmons' child has been receiving good viewers from
hip-hop audiences and proving himself as a well-rounded lyricist.
simmons put out his first mixtape "the first flight" and
signed to atlantic records march 21 this year.
i especially like his music videos, his camera men and design crew add
to the drama. and least we forgot how far his blog has come along.
i'm excited to see what he puts out next.

he actually reminds me of kirko bangz (just a little)..anyone else think so?

"No, no, no. It's step, pivot, step, pause.
Are you TRYING to piss off the volcano?"

-Peter Griffin

summer means

eating cereal at any time of the day and it is ah-okay.

(it's a freeing feeling..but i rather feel retail freedom by having a job)

one of my favorite poems

that night with the green sky by tao lin

It was snowing and you were kind of beautiful
We were in the city and every time I looked up
Someone was leaning out a window, staring at me

I could tell you liked me a lot or maybe even loved me
But you kept walking at this strange speed
You kept going in angles and it was confusing me

I think maybe you were thinking that you'd make me disappear
By walking at strange speeds and in a strange, curvy way
But how would that cause me to vanish from the planet Earth?

And that hurtsWhy did you want me gone?
That hurts
Why?
Why?
I don't know
Some things can't be explained, I guess
The sky, for example, was green that night

my latest addiction

it's the milk chocolate caramel shake from godiva
it is only 5 dollars and it is the best spent $5 EVER.


i bring it in the car
i drink it on my gate
i even put it in the mailbox.
it must be how tonia coats the sides of the cup with the caramel.
and then she does something with the chocolate on the side i can only imagine is where the magic happens.
then comes the whip cream and caramel topping (one time the lady accidently put rasperberry, but that was good too)
i recommend if you've never tried this....YOU SHOULD!




and me..well. i just back and let the magic happen.
i'll count calories when i have to start weight watchers
(which i can only hope is never tehe)

do thine eyes deceive me? it's about time you put on your 3D glasses.

.

alicia keys-unthinkable

alicia keys’ “unthinkable” (i’m ready) premiered may 12
like terrenece from 106&park said, "it's not a love song it's not a break up song..."
jake nava directed this
romeo&juliet video of forbidden love, with chad michael murrary as romeo and, of course, alicia keys as juliet.
a short film depicting interracial lovers passing through several different time periods.
the video portrays black, white and color love with intense emotional woes, secret
glances in corner stores and even a fight scene.

i know..it gave me chills as i watched it and was able to understand the theme and tone.

7 ways to measure the length of a rope

i.
impressions, resembling time.
the length of the rope,
impersonating the rings of an oak tree.
settling the score between now and then.

ii.
it was him.
it was me.
we were the fibers.

iii.
from this height you can hear the heavens open.
and the rope linked him to the next passing.

iv.
to tug, is to offend
gentle strokes speak to its nature
a sound sweeter than plucked harps

v.
whispers of stretched twine
breathe deeply an exhale slow

vi.
march on
to the thunder clap.
as the rope beats fresh earth

vii.
dangle naked
like lovers in the midnight hour
the length of the rope seems endless
in the break of a new light

peeling back your skin to reveal the real you, inside.

i tried to imagine.
if he was he,
but not himself.
like he was still himself wrapped in the same skin, but inside he was different.
still the same but not the he i knew outside.
just him alone removed of himself.
-the self-
i know or wish he was.
too bad i'm running out of danelions to blow on to change you back or forward.
maybe at a different time he was him, the way he was suppose to be.

chatter.

so i thought only older people talked loud on their cell phones in public places. (but oh no) i was wrong. young, loud black males waiting to see the dentist do such things.
please someone call this guys name and get something in his mouth quick!
did i mention what he was talking loud about?
well allow me, blogger family.
he was trying to convince his friend, les, not to propose to this girlfriend because he still flirts with other girls.
really?
then they tried to classify cheating.
he said talking on facebook was cheating....then said when les goes on dates he's cheating.
poor les's girlfriend.

so excited.

For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide When the Rainbow Is Enuf is a 1975 stageplay by Ntozake Shange.
i have been cast as lady in red
and i hope i do well since i look like a nine year old girl and i'm not sure how well that will go over if i'm suppose a grown lady speaking about grown lady things.

this is the monologue i had to do for my audition.

take me back to that place, i've forgotten the way.
to marvel at the tree blossoms
and say, my how beautiful the air is so sweet here.
your hands were so big my face became lost in the
lines. i miss those times. i miss that place.
we ran away together, but you're a liar.

#inever trust a girl with a designer purse.
i have this notion that the inside is lined with walgreens bags.

growing young with old parents

my parents had me at 34.
now i get to experience tampons and menopause.
cramps and arthritis,
shots and blood pressure medicine,
finals and retirement plans
(you get the picture)
i am forced to deal with the clashing of generations.
when i watch gossip girls i have to hear about the children nowadays
and there isn't a break with the sex crazed commercials. sheesh.
with age comes knowledge and no one told my parents
having a child at 34 was an odd time to have an infant???
but i love my parents and i love my life.
it's just hilarious (until a levi's commercial comes on)

study break. even though we finished with finals long ago

this is the bestie's picture
i told her color jessie brown, but she gave me an excuse about realistic.
(she might be a racist)

my caterpillar was the best
of everyone's....seriously and ngoc colored the bee

girl crush

my latest girl obsession is katerina graham from the cw new series vampire diaries.

this 20 year old bewitches audiences as bonnie bennett, a high school witch.

graham has been featured in commericals from barbie to pop tarts since the age of six, and has many her way manuvered through the entertainment world.

you may have seen graham in videos with many recording artist like john legend, b2k, akon and musiq soulchild. or many even on stage dancing for missy elliot, bow wow and pharrell.

she was made appearances on shows like joan of acadia and feature films like 17 again.

she even records and produces her own music.

it seems this girl can just about do it all, and i am certain to guys she is there new stacey dash.

2010 will be a promising year for the young starlite. the vampire diaries has been scheduled for another season and she will be appearing in three movies, one being the directorial debut comedian cedric the entertainer bleachers.