"the dark and twisted people
celebrating the fall of an empire"

gotta love it. or not.

i have these shorts. finally.
so i'm excited to see the creations i will...uhhh create with them. lmbo.

my co-worker hates my pants pleats. and my dress pleats. and my shorts pleats.
but he loves how i wear them.
hiiiiii jose'.


now to find a funky tank top like this.
zara sale it is :D

soon enough, soon enough.

fruits. and yogurt.

so there is a frozen fruz
opening up next across from express at the galleria
and although i am not the healthiest person

i wanted a pinkberry
and this is close enough.

i am too excited.
please, let them give a mall discount.
i see too much money going to
frozen fruits.

as the sun melts back
into the horizon- marking an end
to another day.

it shadows the land- a sky pierced
with man-made lights

because we're all afraid of the dark.

how i miss thee blogger. and blogs of all kind.

our laptop cord has shorted out
and it proves how much i use the internet.

i miss blogging soooo much :(

and reading blogs.
tonia's. jasmine's.quincy's.sarah's.tynette's.kendra's.erin's.everyone blog really.
i try to keep up, but it's been sad.

me and the old pen and paper for now.

and my aunt's computer will do for now..i shall blog as much as i can to keep me content.

the red carpet with black people. ♥

uh, hello?

during our home renovations our phone hasn't been working
so somehow my phone has become the new house phone
and everyone in my family calls me

yesterday when my dad called me from work
so i gave the phone from my mom and the conversation went a little like this.

Mom: Hello. No this is Gisele. Meagan your dad wants to talk to you.
Meagan: ARGH.
Dad: Meagan, what's the name of that laptop.
Meagan: The MacBook?!
Dad: Yeah, ok bye.

SMILES.

please oh please.

so my birthday is in one month

and i know the birthday fairy better adhere to my only birthday wish.
(tis beautiful)

not the coffee mug or the books.

decisions. decisions. decisions.

junior year of college means. it's time to decide the rest of your life. check your major and minor box now. i know i want to be an english creative writing major but do i venture down poetry or fiction path? i love poetry. i love to read poetry. and analyzing poetry but fiction is more universal. but it seems harder. i'm unsure of writing 10 page stories for class assignments. argh. i prefer writing poetry. i wish someone who knew the answers could tell me what to do :(

the origin.

i wish i used a scanner but...i was too excited to go through the process

so my mom got out some old family albums
and as i was going through them i realized.
my family has been killing the fashion game since before i was born
i thought i was starting something
but oh no,
they have been holding it down.

so i figure i'm a legacy
(jokes)....(sorta)

my mom is beasting the jean vest. jeans. and black tube top look. work.

and my dad's 'fro is doing good things in the 70s

my grandmother appears to be channeling jackie o in this picture
so i guess that makes my grandfather john kennedy :D

and this diva, my oldest sister, i love the ruffle childhood bikini.

i'm pretty proud lol

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i'm waiting for the day all my bottled in emotions manifest themselves into a stomach ulcer.

all the days i try to forget- the moments i wish never happened

i can't erase them, as well as i can close my eyes and pretend it was all a dream.

as much as i write,
there are things i refuse to say aloud or to read on paper.

to deal with. to share.

they happened.
but i don't find many people who can hold my secrets and bad times.

i wish i could place these moments in a box with a weight and drop it in the pacific ocean.

karaoke. yes i'm obsessed.

Things have been so crazy and hectic
I should have gotten back by now
but you know how much I wanted to make it
it’s probably better anyhow
so if you gotta go
if theres anything I should know
if the spotlight makes you nervous
if you looking for a purpose
you put the tea in the kettle and light it
put your hand on the metal and feel it
but do you even feel it anymore
I remember when you thought I was joking
now I’m all singing Karaoke
further than I’ve ever been
so if you gotta go
if there’s any way I can help

Isn’t it ironic that the girl I wanna marry is a wedding planner
that tells me my life is too much and it moves to Atlanta
damn, of all the places you could go
I just thought you’d choose somewhere that has somebody that you know
I always up too late I worry bout you there alone
in that place you call your home
warm nights and cold patron
I hope you don’t get known for nothing crazy
cause no man ever wants to hear those stories bout his lady
I know they say the first love is the sweetest
but that first cut is the deepest
I tried to keep us together you were busy keeping secrets
secrets you were telling everybody but me
don’t be fooled by the money I’m still just young and unlucky
I’m surprised you couldn’t tell

so they're younger, but 10x cooler than me....

oh, ok. cool.

wanted:

this shirt.
i love the detailing.
and the semi-circle front.

if found.
please,
do not hesitate to buy this for me.

the boy's got flavor.

if you have to ask..you just don't know.

college.the year i was born.

I know my parents love me,
Stand behind me come what may.
I know now that I'm ready,
Because I finally heard them say
It's a different world form where you come from.

Here's a chance to make it,
If we focus on our goals.
If you dish it we can take it,
Just remember you've been told
It's a different world form where you come from.
It's a different world form where you come from.

they left out all the stuff in between.
or should we?

lookbook.nu life is but a dream to me

meet bobbi b.
she's 17

and i found her on lookbook.nu
which i love cause it details

the color palette
and the items the person wears along with where the got it from

sooo <3
and that is a providence of fashion

i know because i have my acceptance letter from howard still on my bookshelf


that school is very
"who's wearing what when and where"

and that's too much pressure for me cause sometimes ugly comfortable is me.

i cdnt stand it
i cdnt stand being sorry & colored at the same time
it's so redundant in the modern world

lady in orange
for colored girls who have considered suicide when the rainbow is enuf

with the radio on.

Roadrunner, roadrunner
Going 100 mph
Roadrunner, roadrunner
Going 100 mph
With your radio on
With your radio on
Roadrunner, roadrunner
Going 100 mph
With your radio on
With your radio on

bamboo banga -m.i.a

critics are calling her new album noise,
but so far i enjoy xxxo so far.

black power.black fashion.the difference.

omg. www.blackfashion.tumblr.com is the solution.
i miss black people.
and it was just this simple.

i love the satire of it all.

if 106&park played this video
i promised BET,
it'd start watching
106&park

yves rapping is undeniable.
takes me back to the first time i ever heard the cool kids or kidz in the hall
free is just hysterical.

"still not dj'n"

The Niceguys Feat. Jack Freeman "Not At All" from Evesborough Films on Vimeo.

i find you beautiful here-
sitting silently under the
same tree you sat under when
the world was breaking.

with shadows of leaves
cast on your upper lip. you
said were all/ drowning
in a sea of our own.

bubbling out we try to swim,
but someone adds sand
and instead the plot thickens.

i sat there with you to avoid falling stars.
a super nova on my tongue, i miss it all.

time seems to get lost in you.
your presence beats the hands of the
clock in the opposing direction.

i wish i had you strength.

i admit.

i'm a cheater.
yes. it's true.
and i've been cheating for awhile.
both emotionally.physically.and mechanically.
smh
i know. i'm ashamed of myself.

blogger it's not that i don't love you and appreciate the love you've shown me for this year and a half.
it's just tumblr we wide open.

i'm still not sure if i'll cross over.
but the reblogging and the potential of it all.
roar.

we need couples therapy.

ny fall 2010: alice temperly

mj was right.
it doesn't matter if it's black or white,
because it all looks good togeter.
(sunshine or rain)

off the racks. into the fryer.

sometimes finding a guy
can be a lot like finding an outfit.

you rush to the racks
and show everyone you're find to indicate
you "saw it first no one else can have it"
&once it/he doesn't fit and you
put it back on the hanger
no one else should still try it on.

we've all been there
"oh i have that shirt already"
translation: put it down.
smh. it's very sad.
i do it too, but only cause shopping is exciting.
i always insist "girrrlll, just don't wear it the same day and we good."
that doesn't apply to boys though.
hahaha.

poor shirts and boys. beware.

dear blogger,
today was a good eyelash day. thanks to mascara and liquid eyeliner pencil.
a brush of blush. bronzer on the tip of the nose. done.

love,
meggoo

walking around.

all these emotions
and all the problems.
i carry them in my shoe
and walk around with them
left. right.left.
all i can make sure of is

that i wear cute shoes and

i keep support on my soles.

all in a day's work

today
was long.

got ready for work.

feed the dog.

arrived at the galleria,

to find a run in my stockings.

bought new stockings.
went to work.
i went all googley for cute boys.
i saw friends.
tonia make me a chocolate caramel shake.
i stalled for traffic.
the most beautiful woman did by make-up
at saks - the dolce and gabbana station
and when i get my check i am coming back for sure crystal
i got home to blog
found some great things online
went over my lines
went to bed
so that i could get up and go back to work
(there is a sale)
please come to express and but me out of my shop the box misery.

thesewomenarethebest

my favorite movie is the women
the entire movie continues without one appearance of a man
it's amazing
the main character mary haines played by meg ryan
finds out her husband has been having an affari with the spritzer girl at saks
annette bening's character sylvie fowler has a male boss who hounds her the entire movie but you never see him
and jada pinkett plays a lesbian

it's all so brillant to me.
i became very invested in the female roles.

if you've never seen it...i insist it's summer find and day off and enjoy.



i'm lying
at the end of the movie debra messing has a baby boy.

if i were on tv, i'd dress like this too

never ever again

fun is different for different people.

vintage dresses. vintages dresses. vintage dresses. vintage dresses.
poetry.words.language.
pretty pictures.sweet gestures.watching you out the corner of my eye.
new shoes.
lemmon pepper wings&&good blogs.
v-necks.sparkle.
afro-centric.
matinees.inspiration and sunrises.

blank canvas nails before i begin to polish them myself
eye contact.being loved.get vintage store finds.
when people read and enjoy-my writings.
walking barefoot.
lyrical stimulation
drake.pharrell.many other guys.
babies that like you and don't cry
quirky.funny.awkward people that make you laugh.

yeh-uh-mmmmm

summer working.

seems like i'm always finding things i need
(more like want)
but i should really should think of these things as additions
and not necessities
or i will always fill incomplete
i am trying to do this whole appreciating the things i have thing
it's ok.
a wallet wouldn't hurt. (let's just take it second by second)
i'm never satisfied
it angers me that there is no pinkberry in houston
(which is the only reason i eat unhealthy...the only)
tsk. tsk.
what's good in the world?
let's go with what we do have and not the things we lack
but mostly this summer is a great time to work on self-esteem
→ being able to accept compliments
responding with thank you
instead of pointing out a flaw
[no more group moments in the mirror showing flaws via mean girls

sitting pretty.

so tre and i sat in the booth at our church's bazaar and melted as my mom and his grandmother fried chicken on sunday.



i tried to hold on and stay cute in my lace

in the end...we were the winners

last kesh post for today. promise. i think.

freshman year in college i wrote an entire five page essay on the kesh photo below
the assignment was to analyze the photographer's point of view
and what the photographer was trying to capture
"She plays on gender roles with both the male and the female in the picture. The female is depicted as more androgynous and holds a masculine stance; whereas the man is wearing false eyelashes and a dress making him seem more feminine. Normally we are shown pictures of rugged and strong men taking control in intense situations demanding a male’s attention, and a woman in large fluffy dresses concerned with superficial aspects of life. Her subtle and yet major attack on the gender roles that have been set over time depicts an alternative view that has been silenced and been in the dark for decades."
"The photographer has angled the camera above the subjects so that the viewers are 'looking down' gaining what could appear to be superior view, but their facial expressions are nonchalant and indifferent towards the opinions of those looking in"

the second photo was plastered over one of my infamous notebooks
freshman year in college as well..
this picture is so striking (partially due to my obsession with people who can draw)
it is so O.o #POW
things that happen in another person's mind
i would never think to draw this ever
i also love the things outlining the drawing...

the last picture. i just love.
the wallet and show with the same textures.
the colors and contrasting. beauty at its basics.

this woman. still young.
has written articles
djs
travels all over the world at a moments notice
has friends across the world
a photographer
a designer
has a cat half wild jungle cat

she just is.

kesh.

i first watched this video during my myspace years looooong ago.

i have to admit. the reason i ever went to kesh's myspace
was because a guy i liked owned one of her shirts and i wanted
to see what all the hub-bub was about
and pretty much feel in love from there.

i think she was the first person to show me being a quirky and funky was ok.
everyone at the time was doing the 80s thing, but i could tell it wasn't a fad
to her it was actually her style. -love i tell you

since i was 16/17 i have followed her myspace.blog
now twitter
i'd follow her home if she'd let me. O.o

the next step. whenever that will be?!

so. shopping list next is:
novelty camera
like a fuji instax camera (modern polariod)
or a holga 35mm camera (and revert to the stoneage of getting film developed)

kesh continued.after the before