sickness. it's a disease.

day two of body aching, head pounding
when i sit still, i fell me throbbing.

in a way it's kind of inspiring-
enlightening.
when i get sick, i want to remember what well feels like.
and how i don't know a day without a headache
until i have a headache.

like sometimes when i go shopping. i stop. and ask myself.
what do i like. and then it becomes impossible for me to find anything else to buy.

i confuse myself.
ouch. my chest is tightening now.

makes me wonder if people denied love feel this kind of sick, this kind of aching.