crash and burn girl

the appropriate song of the moment is
Crash and Burn Girl by Robyn

I should write a song about you
And all the shit that you do
You don't even know what's up
As soon as it's all crashing down


You should have a sticker on you saying
Warning! Keep out!
You're the kind of girl that
Mess you up for life



i feel like im under a magnifying glass
and the world expects me to be perfect
some stepford wife.....

so let me apolgize in advance,

i'm a total bitch.
i make fun of others...and it will probably make you laugh.
sorry.
i'm loud and if i call your name everyone else will probably turn around.
oops..
i'm difficult. very difficult. i do everything the hard way.
my bad.
my style is off to you normies..i wear things you'd never dream about in a million years.
my fault...
my mood changes constantly...happy.sad.tired.frustrated.excited
i didn't mean to....

none of this is my fault.
you live in a house where tears won't get you anywhere
3 other women and 1 bathroom..
if you speak you're mind you're more than likely to get yelled at for another 30 minutes

so i've learned to take alot of shit
if i'm cold i'll stay cold til i get out the car
if the music is too loud...i'll hum to myself and pray i can hear when i get out
i write
because it really is my safe haven
i'm not critized. not picked on. it's the only place i can express myself

sooooo......sorry.
we learn lessons to lessen the pain

i wanna go back to being that kid eating hot chocolate with bread pieces
at 6am in the morning with my pa-pa waiting for school to start

or wake up to the young& the restless on summer afternoons
cause my grandmother would let me sleep in

ahhhh.....