lessons.to.lessen.the.pain.

why do we condemn ourselves to the heartbreak of relationships?

people beg for us to open up and be vulnerable. so we let them into our lives, just to prove what you already believed about human nature.
we tell our life stories.
we let them see us at our darkest hour.
to be betrayed.
let down.

why?
why date?
what's the point of it all?

don't we date to get married. no one at my age is ready for that type of commitment.

we fill ourselves up on other people's insecurities. gluttons for heartache. asking for heartbreak.

why should i be punished for saving myself from more agony and disappointment.
why should i be criticized for being introverted.
can you blame me for not wanting to converse with the enemy.

so much.so much to say.

how do we recover?
just close back up?
make it harder for the next person.
close up tigher?
become a brick wall.
learn?
allow ourselves to be placed in the same position.